Many, many many years ago when I was 13 years old I was at the Tacoma Mall with my mother. She had just picked me up from juvenile hall-a place where bad and incorrigable kids get to go-but that is another story. This one is about when I first saw my soulmate, the love of my life. He was on a motorcycle wearing a patch over one eye and wearing clothes that could get up and walk on their own. He was with a group of other bikers, but he was different I sensed that about him and I couldn't take my eyes off of him, my mother was screaming at me to hurry up, not me, I had been labelled incorrigable and had learned the definition while I was locked up only to well. I slowed my walk to just about a crawl giving him time to catch up. Our eyes locked on each other till my mother grabbed my arm and thru insults to the captain that would make a sailor blush, it did not disuade him from taking a swipe at me and me letting him know that I wanted more than anything for him to come back and take me with him. I didn't care if he was older than me. I didn't care if we didn't physically or personally know each other I knew deep down that we belonged together, that we had been together in a past life and that he was now going away from me again. I felt choked up, lost and alone again. My mother was threatening to send me back to juvy and I said so do it! Well she didn't and I told her that threats will NEVER WORK AGAIN. She could like it or lump it.
Well after all that we got home and I went to my room and had a good cry, hoping that I would see my biker again. I imagined what he was doing, if he like music, if he played an instrument, if he could sing. IF HE THOUGHT OF ME!!!.
After school was over for the day, for weeks I would go to the mall and wait to see if he would come, he didn't. Then I thought well maybe this weekend or the next, nope. I cried myself to sleep at nites wondering about him trying to get him to feel me reaching for him, trying to let him know that he made me feel alive for the 1st time in my life since I was (3 years old.- another story for later).
Well time past and I remained convinced I would see him again and that I also needed to get on with my life as he probably was doing as well.
I am going to skip a few years here.
I am working as a waitress at 2 restaurants trying to make ends meet and to feed two growing children with no child support and still putting up with a pushy self involved ex.
I was trying to become whole again and make it on my own, it was hard. I didn't have time to date, so made the most of what I had at work for stimulating conversation with people at work and some of the customers. I was really not interested in dating anyway, my luck with men was dismall at best. Then there was this guy who came in to the Denny's that I worked at looking like he lost his last friend and we started to talk-he didn't say much one way or the other, but I wanted to cheer him up-why because he looked sad and I knew that feeling only so well. So I told him some jokes clean of course I really didn't know him. Well as time went by (days) he relaxed and was being more social. Well, one day he comes into Denny's announcing that HE was going overseas!!!!!!!!!. He sits down in front of me as I pour him a cup of coffee and I said WHAT NOT WITHOUT ME YOU DON'T!! (did I really say that) did that come out of my mouth, is that a tear on my cheek, was he really serious? He looks at me with surprize as I to could see myself (it was like an out of body experience). Well now I have stuck my foot squarely in mouth I could not beleived my ears. I asked did I say that and he said yes, you said not without me. I apoligized and he said why didn't you mean it and I said yes, but I don't know why I did, he asked would you miss me and I said with my whole heart(did I just say that) I know I did but why I really don't know him, but I wanted to! Well he went to work and I got busy with the rest of my customers and got teased by my coworkers for blearting out my feelings, my comment back what are ya jealous! Well just before I was to get off work Jim(The Captain)came in and asked me if I would like to go to dinner and I said no but would love to go for a drive instead. so we did. That nite and everynite after that. He missed his plane the day he was suppose to go to california to go overseas. He didn't tell me until it was to late for him to leave.
It is now late spring of 1979, 13 years almost to the day that the captain and I had first layed eyes on each other in Tacoma at the mall, we are in the shower and he turns the water hotter than I could stand so I said I am getting out of here and on my way out I turned around and his hair was covering up one of his eyes and I said OH MY GOD-OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!! He said WHAT ARE YOU OK!!! I said ITS YOU, IT IS REALLY YOU!!!!. he said and who else would I be and I said no It is you from tacoma mall. You use to ride a bike and you took a swipe at me and my mother called you a bunch of dirty names, you had a patch over one of your eyes. Is that you I speak of? I hadn't told him everything because I wanted to be sure. So I let him fill in the rest for me and it was him.
We got married 6 months after having been together. It only seems like yesterday. Chandabear thanks for asking
Chey
